A new blog

I have decided to go to my other blog and write from there. If you would like to follow me... go to.....
http://familyjourneyintoeternity.blogspot.com/
 I love the look of that blog better and I just feel like ONE BLOG is plenty to keep up for me :) hope to see ya there... I love comments so feel free to leave some :) Thanks :)

The Lord has been preparing me....

 Wow.... has the Lord been preparing me again... Once again putting thoughts into my head about a child of mine, who isn't a child anymore....  I can't exactly share yet.... still waiting for her to realize what I already know.
But I wanted to take a moment to say.... The Lord does know me, he knows I need help and preparation and he has been doing that. I am thankful for that. So very thankful.  I know that what will be will be hard for me and a blessing all together.    We will be fasting and praying that she finds out what she feels she must do.   I could be wrong.... but I am pretty sure that I have been prepared... and that is all I can say until more is allowed.

Do you love me?

This weekend was General Conference. I loved it. There were very powerful talks given, many touching my heart and lifting my spirits.  One talk by Elder Jeffrey Holland really moved me. I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. I cried through his whole talk.  It was about our Savior and how much do we love him? It can be watched here http://www.lds.org/general-conference/watch/2012/10?lang=eng&vid=1884811466001&cid=9

Some of the questions he shared were as if he was Jesus saying to all of us, " DO YOU LOVE ME MORE THAN ALL OF THIS?"  *all of whatever else we may put before him..... our movies, books, video games, shopping... the list is long and for me... I can add food. *

DID NOT MY LIFE AND LOVE TOUCH YOU MORE THAN THIS? *as if Jesus were asking*  more than all the other things we choose to put into our lives to take up our time and energy.

Elder Holland then gave me more to think about...  Come judgement day, when I am blessed to meet with Christ face to face and he asks me..."DO YOU LOVE ME?"  will I be able to stand there and  say with a clear conscience. YES, OH YES MY LORD, I LOVE THEE SO VERY MUCH! *by what I did with my life... how I served others and shared the gospel. How I tried to live as Christlike as possible.

 It has been the question I am now asking myself every time I make a decision.  I say to myself, " Will this show Jesus that I love him?"   I want to make it one of our families new family motto's.   I want them to think every time they go to act or choose to do something.... "will this show that I love Jesus?" 

 I have  a lot of work to do...  to be able to say I have done all I could. I mentioned food above because I think if I feed my body things that are not healthy that I am not showing Him how much I love him. I was given this great blessing of a body.  How can I treat it so badly ? It is my personal temple. Like the temple I attend I would not dare enter in unworthily and this is how I must think about my body as well.

When I don't make time to connect with the Lord daily I am not showing HIM I love him. I want to show him, I want to be able to kneel at his feet and thank him for this life and look into his eyes and without him having to ask me... "DO YOU LOVE ME"  have him just respond with, " THOU GOOD AND FAITHFUL SERVANT, WELCOME HOME"  I want him to know it... to not even need to ask it. I want to help others and serve others more. I want to teach it to my children.  I am now praying for help with this.... asking the Lord to guide me to opportunities to be able to do just that.

My husband did point out something that gave me great comfort. He said, " You already are serving... your family."  That meant a great deal to me, for him to not only recognize it but to point it out to me, because sometimes I feel like what I do is just my job, but indeed... Mothers everywhere do serve their families and loved ones constantly :) 



I am excited to think of new goals to make for myself and with my family that will be orientated about Christ and serving him.

Thank you HEIDI!

                           A  week ago we *the healthy challenge group and I*  were challenged by our nutritionist Heidi, to not get on our computers more than twice a day.  Well...that challenge wasn't as hard as it could of been for me, because my computer broke.... *not completely but it wouldn't connect to the Internet and we don't have the money to have someone check it out.*

So...... I have a tablet. which is way smaller and sometimes frustrating for me to use and I have my husbands laptop, which I do not like. So this challenge was easier for me.  I wanted to get on, but couldn't. It kinda took the challenge part out of my hands and made it a "THIS IS HOW IT IS " thing for me.    After some time now, I have realized  I am doing more.  I will be honest, I didn't think I was spending a lot of time on the computer, but looking back now.... I think I spent the majority of my day there.  Crazy! How did I spend so much time on there?  

 I want to say THANK YOU HEIDI and thank you to God that my computer broke. Heidi made a comment to me after it happened that it might be a blessing in disguise. Oh was I upset at first with her for saying that.  "RIGHT A BLESSING???? HELLO!

 Yes it has been a great blessing. A  HUGE BLESSING! I am getting more done around the house that I was neglecting, I am spending more time with my family and children than I did.

 

 I am not so FUZZY in the brain, which sounds weird, but.... I got to where I wasn't really listening to my children and only heard little bits and pieces, focusing was harder.  I am starting to wonder if all that inactivity were some of the reasons?  

Either way, I am thankful for not being on the computer as much. I have felt better, HAPPIER because I have been more productive.  HAPPIER! did you see that one? Who knew! :)



I have made an exercise room over the weekend and painted a wall I have wanted to paint for a while. :)  It feels good. So good, that I told my husband, I feel like I have shut the world out! It FEELS GOOD!   I am not missing out on anything like I thought I would be. People who are really in my life are IN MY LIFE! Calling me, coming over and connecting with me the old fashion way.  That is how its suppose to be. I know when we get our computer fixed, I want to stick to the rule of no more than twice a day. I might even only do it once in a while or once a day :)  I am filling my life up with things that matter... LIKE MY CHILDREN!

 MY FRIENDS! THE GOSPEL :)   It feels good to feel like I am back to me or my old self... a part of me that has been missing for a while. This one challenge has really helped me and changed me for the better. THANK YOU THANK YOU AGAIN HEIDI! I have needed this OLD ME BACK :)